Hey! I was not at all active this whole time! The last time I texted u! There has been a lot of high n lows occured in my life ! Today After these many days I will share u everything! My life has been always seen a rough patch! Even if I was happy for once something used to happen and I used to cry the double I was happy! These all started when I was in class 6th ! I was just 12-13 years old ig! It was my own Saga Bada Mama! Who did all the things with me for like 5-6 years ! I was a very innocent child since birth ! The only problem I had that I used to trust people very quick! This was his first time he came to our house to continue his further studies! My mom side of family all belonged to Bihar n we used to live in Raipur Chhattisgarh in a rental house as we shifted from our home town Jagdalpur when I was in 4th! My father has a government Job! He is a patwari ! So transfers were normal but in 2011 he decided (My father) to move with whole family to this new place Raipur! Everything was good until he (My mama) came to live with us ! Also my sister has Vitiligo! Which has been cured at a very good extent now! So for her treatment we had to travel across the country to get her the meds n stuff! So In 2013 my Masi’s wedding was there! We all went to Bihar I was in class 6th ! After all the rituals happened 2-3 days went we all had gone to watch this movie ! YJHD! So after we came back to Nani’s place he kissed me on lips n as a girl child i was never been thought of these good touch, bad touch in my young age ! I thought out of love he did that! But his intentions was something else!

His this kind of ill intentions were already started to happen! He used to touch my private parts! He did everything except for s*x! Like all the other stuffs which u know Jis hadd tak vo saari Galat cheezein kr skta tha usne Kiya ! I was the victim of S*xual Abuse! He finger*d me when I was in class 7th n I had no clue what he is doing! He used to threaten me k agr kisi ko btaya toh Mai bol dunga k she was asking for it! Like f*ck how a 14 year old can say that to someone ! This all used to happen with me in like daily basis! We shifted to Kathmandu for like 7-8 months in 2014 for my sister’s treatment! There we used to live in a rented apartment! My father that time was in raipur only! And i was left with him alone as he(my papa) used to love me a lot! And my school was there only ! So papa k dost log aate the vo log bhi mujhse bht pyaar se bt krte, mere liye nashta laate it was going all good coz us time mera BkL mama vhn nhi tha!

Then after settling my mom n my sis and Bro he came back to Delhi to take me to Kathmandu with him to my mom! One day i got really sick! I hd very high fever n my papa was not home so for him(mama) it was a good time to like have something with me! He then started doing all lovey dovey things to me! I was in class 7th ! Bc. And he was the one who made me see P*rn when I was in class 6th for the first time! He was playing with all my child emotions! As till 10th never understood that all these things are which Couples Do! I got addicted to Porn n all this things! He used to touch me inappropriately everytime he get the chance! He even said let’s do s*x I was in class 9th that too without any Protection! I denied to do so! He used to say me k merko krne de tbhi Tera koi kaam krunga nhi toh nhi ! I was very frustrated with all these things at one point! When I got to know that all these things are wrong and it happened to me because of him (Mama) I confessed everything to my Mom when I was in class 10th! I told her that his brother is not a good person he abused me since I was 12-13! And all her expression or the reaction to this was let me talk to nani about this! And then she did nothing

Whenever I was like lemme tell this to my Father she never had made me do this! My father made very wrong image about me! He believed all the lies which my mom told her! And he hated me for straight like from when I was in 10th till last year 2023! These all years had been very tough for me to survive! I never
deserved the things which I had gone through! It was all pathetic event of my life! This is the one incident! My life has never been normal like other people! Full roller coaster of emotions and feelings! Which all ended in the worst condition ! Which left me in All depression, anxiety attacks, high cortisol, and many problems regarding to health! I thought itna bura koi kaise kr skta h apne hi bacche k sth ! As I told u that I told my mom about what his brother is doing to me! Still she took no action against him! She said ky chahti h tu police mai complaint kru? I was like haa or ky krte h yeh janne k bd ! She said straight no to my face! And from that day i started hating her! She was in Denial that her brother did it! And never took stand for me till today! She never wanted that my father should know about this! So whenever I tried to told him (My dad) through writing on paper! She used to tear it which eventually led to not knowing my father anything about it! And then i was used to like see my abuser in front of me everyday as that time he used to live with us only! In 2019 we shifted to our new Home In Raipur, which was our own! There he took a flat in nearby area to come to our home whenever he wants!

I went to class 12th he used to like say to me in a very different tone that come to me! Maine tb tk Sikh liya tha toh survive in that house! Since 10-11th i tried to tell many people to tell about him! What did he did to me! I was seeking for some help very badly! I told my padosi bhaiyas, my friends, some
thought I was lying but many believed he was really doing it to me as to whom I shared all these are still close to me and know me inside out ! They said please bro apne papa ko bta ek br kaise bhi krke n finally after all that happened to me I told my father everything last year on 10th July ! I cried my heart out in front of him! He hugged me n told me that whatever will be the problems u gonna face just give me a call about that! This was all possible because in these many years i and him(papa) never got a chance to be like all alone! Every time there was someone in front of them i won’t be telling him all these stuffs! He cut all the ties with my mom side of family. There were so many things in between too that happened which was very hard for me to let it go off my mind! Till today any person who came into my life has took the advantage of me to all the worst extent! And i was traumatized by all these! Still I’m in my Healing journey! But the things I have shared here were so much in my head just giving me flashbacks every time I feel sad I end up crying about my entire life.