CONFESSOR: I’m expecting my first child. The guy and I were dating each other for a couple of months. He is designated in a gazette post in cisf. This was an unplanned pregnancy and he didn’t want to be part of it .he walked away. I’m already a divorce out of a very toxic marriage so I Literally have no strength to proceed legally. My parents dismissed when I was 16, since then I am financially supporting myself alone. So I have no blood relation to support in this condition. Due to medical complications I could not even abort!on. This guy broke up with me in March . I recently contacted him coz I wanted to have security if something happened to me a person should be there. This guy said he could not afford and provide financial support. Financially I earn decent and I was the one who always spent. He is the only earner of the family after his father’s death. He has 3 sisters, 2 are unwed. I literally don’t know am I doing right with my baby. His father doesn’t want the baby and not a single one day I feel rejected. I feel I am not good enough.I feel I’m not a marriage material. I assume the guy is enjoying multiple girls attention. He posts pictures and follows girls. It hurts but I’m keeping quite coz I know I’m stupid that I trusted him. I’m scared of men now .all the men you came in my life objectified me. And now I don’t know what is right or wrong. Sometimes I feel I should ruin his life but then in another moment I feel that will not lessen my misery.

ADMIN: I think it would be a lot easier if you reached out to women’s helpline. I don’t think you can fight it all alone. This guy is not going to come back. He has his priorities set.

CONFESSOR: I really don’t know if he will ever come back for his child…now he is in touch with me for certain formalities coz if he don’t I will take legal action I have said him that. But he still acting selfish. He has a thought of marrying someone hiding a fact he has a kid. How shallow man he could be. I reached out recently to him coz I need his name for my kid..out of wedlock child is a stigma . I asked him to inform his family and he said I can’t. He said meri shadi ni hogi if I share I have a kid. He thinks he can hide this from the girl whom he will marry. I’m not asking for monetary support but kid has legal rights to use his father’s name. This man has a plan to hide the kid’s existence. He wants to cheat another woman.

ADMIN: Why cant he marry you? Why does he have to marry someone else ?

CONFESSOR: Not a single one time he said …he says spark ni h humare bich. Nope..i believe..he was secretive since the beginning but I assume he is not married. I know he emotionally manipulated me.being a 30 year old man he ran away from this situation. In my life I have gone through toxic things I literally have no bandwidth n energy to invest on him.

ADMIN: Why would you both agree mutually to get physical if there is no trust?

CONFESSOR: Some people might say I’m a fool.. everything was fine in the beginning. He suddenly changed after the pregnancy news. After his changed behavior I assume he pretended. Coz there is a contrast in both the personalities. At the beginning of the relationship I was clear with my expectations n he showed mutual but after the pregnancy news everything changed. I used to trust him from the beginning. Things were mutual and he said he just needed time to discuss his personal issues. We use to meet once a month coz of his busy schedule he is an assistant commandant. As it was initial time as well I too work in corporate in a leadership position. We use to chat n talk over call …in a decent frequency. I m 31 n he is 30 so it was not a lovey dovey type of initial days. And within a few Months of dating I conceived. Which is itself a shock n even it took 2month to get confirmation of pregnancy

Few days later(Messaged me after few days)

CONFESSOR: Amit is already married . It’s a shock for me to get this news from his department. He is currently in jail. I believe because an FIR has been logged. Amit is assistant commander in CISF. His wife is sub-inspector in cisf. I complained in the department and then I got this news. Since June my world is upside down. I really don’t know where my life is leading. Har chiz kaise manage karu, kuch smjh ni ara. I don’t feel like meeting or talking to anyone. I am the most rude person. I can’t process things. Have no control over emotion. Some days I am fine. Somedays I am numb. Pregnancy is progressing, but the doc denied my delivery case. This is because she does no want to be part of any legal proceedings. I do not want to change my doctor, but now I have to look for another doctor and hospital. I am literally on the verge of complete break down. Drained emotionally, financially and physically. I am approaching another doctor from Apollo. I will take help from the administration as they can’t deny treatment of a rape victim and according to law, now I am a rape victim. That is why she is insisting me to get the delivery done in government hospital. He never told me he is married. One girl showed up to whom Amit approached as a bachelor. She was from the same gym. She herself supported me in department enquiries. She even came up with an audio of his hidden marital status fact. She also produced the audio of Amit claiming he is a bachelor. So right now I am having supporting proofs. She helped me in spite of her mother being on dialysis. She can’t be with me all the time. Life is too harsh. Amit’s wife is supporting him in all this. They are married since 2017 and she is fully aware of what is happening. Amit said that his wife was aware of the affair from the start. Later on they are pretending that she is going to divorce him. She is also posted in Hyderabad. How would she not know of the affair. Amit used to talk to girls for about 8 to 9 hours. They (Amit and wife) were in IVF treatment. Right now I know his wife is supporting him internally in the department. To maintain her image she is faking that she is going to divorce him. If she was a good lady, she would have contacted me. They are having an open marriage I think. Amit offered me a one time settlement amount which I denied. After one month of complaint, I filed an FIR. The local police arrested him within 24 hours. This woman (his wife) how can she support him. She ruined the my life and the life of my unborn child. I don’t know what kind of marriage they had. No morals